2012

chanced upon this blog after having nothing to do. i'm quite surprised it still exists. and i'm also quite surprised that i still remember quite a few posts (well, not the physical act of posting but the events described over the years). wow, it's been awhile! just for me, here's an update as to my life so far since '09. I graduated from RJ (straight As thanks god). Managed a place in NUS Law. Rejected by Cambridge. :( Rejected by YaleNUS. :( Went for my spine op, pretty much gave up on parkour. At home recovering. 2nd year NS. I'm a clerk, really ass job. Preparing for life beyond NS and into uni I suppose. Or I could just backpack round the world using passive income from my books to support me. Oh that's right, people actually pay for my writing now. Isn't that wonderful? ^^

it's been awhile

well it's definitely been a long time since i've been here. oh just went to kill a moth fluttering about in my room, now i'm back. right, where was i, yea last year. ok nevermind.

i'm in jc now. and i can't say it's been the best of years, but it certainly isn't the worst either. jc life is certainly different, lectures and tutorial style of learning just doesn't cut it for me, but as far as i'm concerned, do marginally well enough not to get retained and life's good. i can't really connect well with my class but then again it's not like we have common interests either. and it's not like they haven't tried, well that's just how things are i guess. well my promos are finally over and what does that matter. my household's kinda in turmoil now and whatever. frankly i can't be bothered with it all even tho i should. women are the cause of many a man's problems i'd say. that's as far as i'm going. rite then. i'm just here coz i'm bored. bb.

i don't listen to that much heavy metal now, but i'm always on the lookout for great stuff. more rock and electronica and whatever nowadays, as long as it sounds good.

Past

everyone has a past. not everyone has a future.
i'm probably dying, just like everyone else.

i would say i've done a fair bit of travelling in the past. met people, loved people, hated people, bid people farewell. i want to see them again. but after all these years. it's difficult to find them. and even if i do, will they still remember me?

there's this notebook that i had, an ex class gave it to me before i left the school in shenzhen, china, 6 years on, i still have it. but i can't find them. maybe i'll look forward to tomorrow, but for now a trip down memory lane is filled with the regret of not keeping in touch with them now.

High School Is Hell

So my GPA just came back. It's nothing special. Nor did I expect my results to matter so much to me. But generally, like everything else except for guitar and metal I don't give a shit about my results. But there were some nice surprises. I got an A+ for RE which is the first time in 4 years. The gamble I took at the start of the year to just fuck it all for a special interest project paid off. I also topped 3 classes for Geography which is great I guess, but I spent the least effort studying for Geography anyway, half the reason being I hated the teacher. But now I've done well for the exam and I'll letting Geography go to hell.

So now the big question would be what subjects to take next year. Or which school to (probably) transfer to. Frankly I am sick of the Raffles Programme and now that they're merging(RI and RJC) I don't really think I'll still be able to handle the future workload that seems to be a level 100 Burden spell(see: Oblivion). Anyways some other nice places I'm considering would be:

CJC
VJC
Various Polytechnics

And wherever else with easy assessments and great friends. High school is high school. I'm just here to get it over with and blow it up to hell. So there.

And the various subjects being offered next year are all kinda like shit. So at the start of the year I was soo looking forward to going to RJC. But nowadays, I'm just thinking to hell with it all. My O level Chinese(I still have to take that shit) will be next wednesday or something and my life is basically in limbo right now. Great.

Comments on where to direct my future awesomeness(aka: suggestions on which school to go to) can kindly be left under this post.

Thank You.

stomp

i don't like stomp. it fuels the nature urge to be a busybody. when something doesn't conform to the ideal society you have in mind, just a random thing out of the ordinary, take a picture and post it online. privacy issues, things like that, who really gives a damn. and there's the rants. never before has ranting been given such exposure. even being published in the national newspaper at that. recently it's about people not clearing up their plates in public places. well. that's life. get on with it. if something like that urks you so much to the point where you HAVE to ABSOLUTELY do something about it...damn. since when has tolerance in our society diminished to non-existence? well i guess it's in the nature of Singaporeans. being an over-achiever, so focused on work, we expect everything to be taken care of. i'm definitely getting out of this country when i can. I can't start a band here.

Change

it happens.
supposed to be the rainy season this time of year. rained like hell a few weeks ago.
and these few days it's been sunny like scorched earth erotica.
i'm typin this with my left hand coz i'm eating an ice cream with my right.
yep the weather's too hot.

love does not exist on the internetz

there was this fleeting memory i just had.
i was in elementary, probably primary 5 or primary 6, the whole class was in the computer lab

out of fun we went to this love calculator or something. apart from checking out the compatibility of the usual classmates, crushes etc
one friend went to put in the names of his parents. Compatibility = 0%. Funny as hell, everyone who saw it fell of their chairs in laughter. And my friend was understandably pissed at it. Anyways, moral of the story is....

There are no Girls on the internetz. There is no love on the internetz. So get off it and start socialising.