Past

everyone has a past. not everyone has a future.
i'm probably dying, just like everyone else.

i would say i've done a fair bit of travelling in the past. met people, loved people, hated people, bid people farewell. i want to see them again. but after all these years. it's difficult to find them. and even if i do, will they still remember me?

there's this notebook that i had, an ex class gave it to me before i left the school in shenzhen, china, 6 years on, i still have it. but i can't find them. maybe i'll look forward to tomorrow, but for now a trip down memory lane is filled with the regret of not keeping in touch with them now.

High School Is Hell

So my GPA just came back. It's nothing special. Nor did I expect my results to matter so much to me. But generally, like everything else except for guitar and metal I don't give a shit about my results. But there were some nice surprises. I got an A+ for RE which is the first time in 4 years. The gamble I took at the start of the year to just fuck it all for a special interest project paid off. I also topped 3 classes for Geography which is great I guess, but I spent the least effort studying for Geography anyway, half the reason being I hated the teacher. But now I've done well for the exam and I'll letting Geography go to hell.

So now the big question would be what subjects to take next year. Or which school to (probably) transfer to. Frankly I am sick of the Raffles Programme and now that they're merging(RI and RJC) I don't really think I'll still be able to handle the future workload that seems to be a level 100 Burden spell(see: Oblivion). Anyways some other nice places I'm considering would be:

CJC
VJC
Various Polytechnics

And wherever else with easy assessments and great friends. High school is high school. I'm just here to get it over with and blow it up to hell. So there.

And the various subjects being offered next year are all kinda like shit. So at the start of the year I was soo looking forward to going to RJC. But nowadays, I'm just thinking to hell with it all. My O level Chinese(I still have to take that shit) will be next wednesday or something and my life is basically in limbo right now. Great.

Comments on where to direct my future awesomeness(aka: suggestions on which school to go to) can kindly be left under this post.

Thank You.

stomp

i don't like stomp. it fuels the nature urge to be a busybody. when something doesn't conform to the ideal society you have in mind, just a random thing out of the ordinary, take a picture and post it online. privacy issues, things like that, who really gives a damn. and there's the rants. never before has ranting been given such exposure. even being published in the national newspaper at that. recently it's about people not clearing up their plates in public places. well. that's life. get on with it. if something like that urks you so much to the point where you HAVE to ABSOLUTELY do something about it...damn. since when has tolerance in our society diminished to non-existence? well i guess it's in the nature of Singaporeans. being an over-achiever, so focused on work, we expect everything to be taken care of. i'm definitely getting out of this country when i can. I can't start a band here.

Change

it happens.
supposed to be the rainy season this time of year. rained like hell a few weeks ago.
and these few days it's been sunny like scorched earth erotica.
i'm typin this with my left hand coz i'm eating an ice cream with my right.
yep the weather's too hot.

love does not exist on the internetz

there was this fleeting memory i just had.
i was in elementary, probably primary 5 or primary 6, the whole class was in the computer lab

out of fun we went to this love calculator or something. apart from checking out the compatibility of the usual classmates, crushes etc
one friend went to put in the names of his parents. Compatibility = 0%. Funny as hell, everyone who saw it fell of their chairs in laughter. And my friend was understandably pissed at it. Anyways, moral of the story is....

There are no Girls on the internetz. There is no love on the internetz. So get off it and start socialising.

Guitar Contests

It greatly saddens me to see many guitar contests that I am unable to enter for. Simply because I'm not in USA or Canada or wherever. Many people on ebay selling their guitars and other related items are also reluctant to ship their gear to Singapore.

Man, Singapore's on the map dammit. We shouldn't restrict competitions and contests to ppl in the US of A and Canada and UK and where only. It kinda pisses me off. But there's not much I can do about it anyway.

Anyway anyone who reads this with guitars and amps(bass also can) to giveaway why not contact me by commenting here xD. I definitely want whatever equipment you have coz as a student I don't exactly have the cash to feed my shredding habit.

Fruity Loops

First time creating a track. took some time(1 hr) to create a 34 sec basic 'song'. it was fun. and now i kinda have an idea what to do now. YEA. some people may view me as a metal head, and yes i listen to metal and i'm proud of it. but i listen to MUSIC. which means songs that focus on their chords, their scales, not about whatever you're actually singing because most people(probably just me) don't really care about lyrical content. there are poetry slams for that. MUSIC means expressing yourself and impressing people and having fun doing it. MUSIC can't change the world, but it certainly changes who i am.

and fruity loops is a great software.

tuition

so i went to tuition, and went to the toilet 3 times. no wait, 4.
the first time it smelt okay, so i took a dump(even I have to go sometimes!)
the second time it smelt like smoke
the third time it smelt like piss
the fourth time it smelt like smoke(again)
the place is heavily air conditioned, god forbid anyone smokes in the toilet.

i also remembered some posts back that i was rant about my parents and repeating the word 'FINE" (i think). i suddenly think it's not very manly so that never happened =).

Lucky

random title. I was just looking at what i should put for a title, and suddenly the word 'lucky' came to my head. another one of my whims i suppose.

was just checking out my other blog pandemicwonderboy.blogspot.com(don't bother it's deleted). and i realised since sec3 i have been really really immature about things, rap is immature haha. still, i like rap(certain songs), but metal is still the shit. seemed like my last blog was just a place to rant and blow of steam. either way, it's deleted now, so i don't really think you should bother with the last blog.

wrote a random poem on wed while waiting maybe 1 to 2 hrs at the sch's printing shop to print a 100+ page RE report(damn proud of that report I am). and well, surprisingly the poem is entitled 'print'!

Print

Letter by letter
Word by word
Line by line
A report is defined

Molecules of ink
Drying instantly
the machine's on the brink
facing a hundred page project

A minor error here
A slight mistype there
Another page to repeat
The machine will overheat

But no one's aware of its despair

---

HAHAHA, random. I think it was quite good though, just started strumming power chords on my acoustic guitar, and suddenly, i started singing the poem out on A7 chord somehow, strumming the 5 & 6th string a few times, and then the 2nd - 6th strings to let the 2nd and 3rd string ring. i think it's a nice song =)

rush

exams are coming.
I have 4 tests next wk on a five day work week. lousy.
i find myself studying more and more. sucks.

Life Sucks

no idea how I thought of that, but for the next few months, till around 5 November, life is going to sucks. so i'm not sure whether i will posting anymore until then.
Hate the final exams of course.

underbar

got an acoustic guitar today. a nice blue one, pity the frets are abit wrong, usual should 3,5,7,9,12. but mine's just 5,7,10,12. why the hell 10? anyway more or less the sound is great, the painting is decent, can decorate, and it costs $70 at davis, an acoustic CONGRESS. either way it's just for fun and playing songs like 'hurt' by johnny cash.

went to heaven to train today, it really rules, will do the higher level stuff next time lol, met some nice kids there and played soccer. quite fun. next time will hardcore balance. i just realised that when one does not consider everything else and focus all his effort on the movement, it is almost guarenteed that he will make it. considering one is not drunk or on drugs of course. the safest way to train focus would be balancing. by balancing one would only focus on keeping the body in balance and to traverse the thin obstacle, not considering what would happen if one lost balance. if one stopped and took the time to consider the consequences of losing the balance, he would most probably fall on his side and injure himself.

will hardcore balance next time. hell yea!

SLAYER!

random xD

Finnish metal band Kalmah is pretty sick, we should all go listen to them.

Bad Moods

I seriously have no opinion on this, i went to my maths tuition with my bro, then i saw the teacher shouting at someone, not sure what it was, but then again i was shouted at by him before, so then again no matter. He came to me when we entered and stared at my bro, my bro stared back, i decline to say what happened next but it left my bro sniffling i think. Then after that in the middle of doing a maths question my maths teacher and his father went to another boy and shouted at him again. The reasons are all valid I hope, but somehow he was on a rampage today leaving three teenage boys on the verge of crying..damn. It's a method I'd never employ. Bad day.

If ya'll go on www.youtube.com, the most popular video site on earth, you'd find THIRTEEN damn parkour videos being featured recently. Man what the hell happened to youtube.

Lousy

Looking back at my life, I've had many regrets, if my past life were a movie, it'd be sad one. So I'm the chosen pessimist nowadays, it doesn't matter, my life still sucks as of now.

Pilates is fun.

Work is not.

Manek introduced a great new game called audiosurf today, apparent the game gets damn fun when you play metal songs on it. And since 60% of my 2k songs on my playlist are obviously metal, hell yea.

Portfolios are useless, I don't intend to go anywhere anyway, but working in Google would be nice. JC life seems so near yet so far, it's just next year, but looking at what obstacles are in front of me now, all the workload, but with the right philosophy, never limit, ADAPT. Everything in front of me is just another opportunity, make use of it dammit.

'Normal' people who don't do parkour and don't listen to metal, start small if you're interested. And as usual, we can always find great manga on onemanga.com

What a lousy day as usual.

Life on the edge

My Spine has degenerated itself till the point of raising the questions of surgery.
That's the easy way out, they put some metal rod in my spine to prevent it from moving again so that it doesn't curve further to the point of collapsing, but the thing is that it restricts movement, and to a person who lives for movement like me, that's like killing me. I will do anything not to go for surgery, for my spine to cure itself and revert back to it's god given position. It pisses me off.

Chickenpox + Sprained ankle has seen me out of action from school for 1.5 weeks, i definitely will taste hell with all the work pouring on me tomorrow. It pisses me off.
And there's a maths test tomorrow, what a bother. And I will probably have to take the physics test and philosophy test too. It will be a lousy tomorrow.

My parents want me to get a new guitar, probably a stratocaster/telecaster or a les paul. I just want something comfortable to put on my lap. Going to school in slippers tomorrow. BOOYAH.

Art's Fest

boring.

the video that won was really retarded, yet it won, we know what kind of videos to produce next year.
dance got champion, that was well deserved, all the moves were synchronised, and the fight parts were damn cool.

song was useless, but it was good all the same. the band that played had a super pro guitarist.

go listen to 'read a book' by lil jon.

church

my dad dragged me to church.
somehow, now they're calling me a christian.
i only prayed to jesus and god for my injuries to heal. wth.

some teenagers might be confused over their position in religion, especially one who headbangs along to the beat of dimmu borgir.

well i would say that, i'm not exactly a christian, or a free thinker either. that definitely does not mean i worship the devil. hell i believe in god and the devil, jesus to, but that includes buddha and all the other gods in this world man. i believe in jesus but i'm not a christian, i believe there is a god and a satan, but still, i side with neither. conclusion, don't convert me.

Arcane Lifeforce Mysteria

Spiritual Black Dimensions is like my favourite dimmu borgir album now.
9 songs of pure magic.
And Arcane Lifeforce Mysteria is my favourite dimmu borgir song. the starting guitar is not only creepy, but magical as well, the first time you hear it you really think of it's mystique and the overall 'magical-ness' of it.

my tailbone hurts and has been hurting for like week or so. i have no idea why,but i think it's when i failed a dash vault and plonked my ass on the teacher's table. damn.

went to Everton park to check out the location, even though it's raining like hell there, the place is great for a pk vid. arjun is the first dipshit to climb onto the roof of the multi storey carpark there. dipshit. there's a photo in my phone but hell i'm not posting it here. boring now though lol.

finally went to the doc abt my ass, gave me mc till next monday, great doc. she said there's nothing to worry about and it will go away in abt 3 days or so. yea. moral of the story, who gives a shit abt getting hurt when the dash vault is worth doing.

i'm afraid i'll never learn =/

update on my life

nothing to update.
camp was fun.
bought an ipod.
must do more photography and parkour.

done.

treading on uncharted environments

know your limits, that always came to my mind when doing parkour, not this time heh.
as usual, we were doing parkour for RE, one sequence involved a turn vault to a drop that was of no consequence to me, or so i thought. I had not practiced the turn vault for a long time, really out of my emotional league. but frankly, if we let instinct take over, as animals with a few thousand years of experience on the good earth we live in, i didn't think it would let me down.

the film started, there was no space for 'what if i fall?', 'what if i fail?' I can't see the future and i'm pretty sure neither can you(but if you can feel free to drop me a message) at this point in time, you go into limbo, that experience was whack.

I turn vaulted, my only memory of that turn vault was an image of the 'ledge' my feet had to be planted on, then i dropped. half a second it felt fine, as if i was doing it all the time, the suddenly i had tread on uncharted environments, my body realised i had never dropped so far down before, instinct took over, and before i knew it, i landed, knees bent, hands on the ground, ninja style. Damn, never felt so euphoric in my life. Instinct is good, and I will never forget everything I feel about Parkour.

Parkour, instinct, it's just an extraordinary experience for ordinary people.

Charity

flag day today, many thoughts on it, but i'll share a few interesting experiences

my tin was a designer one, with flags of course

there was a mum and her son, the mum wanted to give a few coins, but the son(arnd 6-10 i think) took out his wallet and donated, later he took the flag and gave it to his mum, good kid though.

time to reflect, i have nothing to say here, let it be kept somewhere else where the prying eyes of the internet can't reach.

i'm starting to hate some singaporean netizens, some of them just can't resist posting outrageous, indecent and inconsiderate acts on sites like stomp and crucifying them online, jesus man, just chill.

500ml lemon tea, $1. 1.5L lemon tea, $1.45.

I'd take the 1.5L one.

film

i had no filming projects on tuesday, i ended up with 2 on wednesday. A day can change the world, at least it changed mine.

no one is trustworthy

thank you for teaching me that lessons mum and dad.
someone promised me a bmx if i got full marks for my radian TA, i got it, and got a tongue lashing from them as well.
so what if my assignment was lowest in class, that's not even counted in the CA.
so what if they think my attitude is bad, i still produced results. in this world, results are everything. and they went back on their word. great. fuck off and die motherfuckers.

they don't wanna hear what i don't tell others? fine, let's treat them as strangers. i no longer see them as my parents. good luck to me. i still have that maths cct on monday.

valentine's day

shoot the couples you see on the street for once again, i am dateless. damn.
15 years and still no girlfriend, what a failure i am.
any cute anime-ish girl who's looking for a bf come find me xD

like that's ever gonna happen, anyways i've been seeing couples doing more brazen stuff these days, half of me wants to go like "how romantic..ahh", the other half wants me to shoot them for public misconduct.

nvm, on this lonely night, i still have metal to keep me company.

Metal is Lord. Rock on!

Someday

heh, long time no see blog!
i've deviated from metal somewhat, metal still kicksass, especially COB, but then exploring american hard rock and heavy metal is not bad too.

Still do parkour, abit of freestyle movement, i definitely wanna get a bmx.
Got an electric guitar and have been taking lessons since the start of the year heh.
Power Chords ftw.
My guitar kicksass, a B.C. Rich Metal Master KKV, basically a weird 'V' shaped electric guitar, yea.

What else ar, Sec4 life is boring, especially with so many projects here and there.
My bro joined RC o.0

What should i do with my life, still trying to answer that.

RJC! Only 1 more year! Yea!