Conflict

My internal fortress is crumbling...
The first time you enter leadership training is just like having sex.
You don't know what you're doing, but somehow you enjoy what you're aiming for, and while you do it you're facing conflict of stopping or continuing, and before you know it, it's all over way too fast.

My parents are gonna stop me from this lifestyle of RIRC soon. I don't know how long i can hold out. Yea, my internal fortress is crumbling, and I still haven't done the 2 newspaper articles yet. Oh well, screw it.

My parents think buying me stuff can make me do what they want me to do. Guess what, they thought wrong lol, it takes more than that -.-
Whatever lah, that emotional acceptance you get from your batchmates, batch 56, is more than what your parents can give you. Your friends, those you've been through good and bad times with. Those are the ones that matter. My parents are just wanting me to grow up way too fast..

Did a chinese article today about ppl making children grow up too fast. It's comepletey F***ING TRUE!!!! Just see the stupid Raffles Programme...can't even cater for those students like yours truly who are weak in their academics and build some bullcrap like RA...why...to cater for those students of higher academic ability of course. And what about those students who come in by special talent? What about those who are struggling? You work us soo hard, you embarrass us, brainwash us into thinking that we deserve better, thus we should work harder in our passion. Even if it's unintentional, it's unknowingly done, it's DONE. Congrats, you happy now? Raffles is now a world premier school, thanks to the students that were made into Japanese-WWII-like soldiers. YAY. I LOVE RED CROSS!! THEY'RE OVERWORKING ME AND I LOVE IT!! YAY I LOVE MY COMMITTEE!!! YAY!!YAAAAAAAAAAA

I got bitten by an ant today. >_> Wonder why I didn't kill it..